This 'ere post

the true nature of a day after getting out to a mall enclosed. A day in achieving irritating tasks many and bitty. I have not bathed. My hair is now greasy. And I slopped my dinner dripping it all down me. A homemade dish rustled up from seasonal food ... 

I will be going to bed in these stained clothes in an unmade bed and hope to finally wash the bedding tomorrow? I have changed the bedding recently but can't remember when ...the days of a regular cleaning schedule still gets lost in the rustle to freshen life generally ... 

This is the truest picture of my life a day after getting to have lunch in a different environment spending the money normally set aside for the men in my life once. The Father's Day... and a birthday ... 

I had lunch out ... they would have all appreciated that !!! 

Deletion of a hoard

in complexities which actually can be acknowledged by not always those with the power to assist in the harshest of circumstances 

... words are hollow ... 

actions and body language in understanding are the most appreciated beyond the recognition of fundamental basics... 

Floodgates

every time some report or comment made on the NHS system at breaking point ... the hypocrisy the rules and regs for company's not for those who make sure we are cared for in our time of need ... 

the time when one on a bike was in attendance to myself followed by two in the ambulance one Autumn 

And one festive time when the service made the fatal mistake for not attending a dying relative ... 

The robust call systems and sync of multi agency meetings and much more all pointed out in time to the MP over this time ... not just the people and system at the time with all the stupid rebuff comments one had to endure 

Beyond the cold sales

today ... from the cats protection charity on the street under the marquee. The persuasive techniques to get the medical appointment required today ... And then the chemist with the prescription to be done electronically by someone seen before, but too many people pass to remember ... 

A prescription not always done electronically if you have non repetitive ones ... The irritants to everybody ...  The connotational implications usually quiet within ... today the tone in voice exasperated to the verge of frustratingly blow out ... 

The whimper of a bug leaving a bit of mischief needing stronger medical interventions...

... the lower than low mood of much in recent weeks ... A funeral ... The anniversary approaching of the first year since a mum in law died ... And dealing with the pigheaded machine of grunts ... quick to judge ... Slow to see 

The explosion in mood

upon entering an abnormal home to me ... after a few days to acclimate back ... the two areas I have my eye on 

A drawer not touched since hubby and kid were both around ... the clear back to the foundations of a home to where time stood in dust ...

And the top airing cupboard ... but first finish what I started before I settled back in ... 

Dips in other places

astute in sense where darkness still keeps one cloaked. The emotions yesterday tipped in the surreal world quivering on the border of tears. The envelope of utterless emotion. It does not help being in physical discomfort currently. 

It does not help that most things end up on the floor. The tomorrow in hope after a rest not yet come to tidy up instead. 

The settle in some respite time which always brings new challenges. The panic of where things are to keep comfortable in spirit! 

Captains log ...

star date ... ground aero ... the countdown to the breakaway ...

Yep ... well organised sorts would say ... the meds got, the bills paid, the shopping in for the travels.,  the meals accounted for ...

The next trip out is the collection of the travel tickets to be printed off, that have been booked a while. I never get them till nearer the date of travel ...easier to change the date if so be  ... The packed lunch. The change to spend 30 or 50 pennies for a pee! The good dates for items in the fridge. The intention of the return food, if I am tired to collect supplies on day back of travels ... 

Now any decluttering if minded. A lot of rest. An appointment to fulfil,  and then on me way to pastures different a while ...