Captains log ...

star date ... ground aero ... the countdown to the breakaway ...

Yep ... well organised sorts would say ... the meds got, the bills paid, the shopping in for the travels.,  the meals accounted for ...

The next trip out is the collection of the travel tickets to be printed off, that have been booked a while. I never get them till nearer the date of travel ...easier to change the date if so be  ... The packed lunch. The change to spend 30 or 50 pennies for a pee! The good dates for items in the fridge. The intention of the return food, if I am tired to collect supplies on day back of travels ... 

Now any decluttering if minded. A lot of rest. An appointment to fulfil,  and then on me way to pastures different a while ... 

Love in

a February via pure venom. 

However, back to the preparatory time in all aspects of functions to live. The bend in one and stretch in another cupboard to see where the total is at to top up the gas and electric... 

And the decision on a pot roast today or tomorrow... I think to happen two different timelines in my anxious mode. The heat from the woes depends on the strength in the time rested. 

I know a few good hours to rest up, this evening .... is much required ...  I am glad I have packed the majority already,  for these times in a different schedule. I am way ahead of myself to allow the stress I have indeed had from the revisits of old wounds ... 

Agitation ...

to be put aside today ... Valentines Day ... a day in a February back,  a birth date due, came and went and still no baby born. Our daughter deciding the end of February would be better. It was not a leap year, that year. 

A day I am still wading through a overloaded past left. Be that it may ... I have been looking a head for a change. The due process enormously slow for a few months in donate of free time. A time that will unsettle much. The misunderstanding of my invisible disability....

A time I was expected after it was written on a form. I had no one in the area, not even a designated continuity of a CC ... to attend an appointment in a neighbouring county, that took most of the day travelling. 

Only housebound in physical get one at home ... here we go again .... my late husband was continually failed in this area. If doctors and many others put side much, actually visited as matter of course on home visits, a very long time ago he would not be dead! 

However a sister and a kindly person, although no one in the office to ask, took note of all my needs and I hope although not guaranteed a more convenient appointment at home or in a more known town ... explaining too that my sister could not be in attendance. She had recently had a op ...