Another test this evening with a gentle waterfall downs the walls ...

And a shower from the light fitting

This water coming down from the flat above into mine. All checked and made safe. The water collecting in the natural pockets and channels of the electrics ... No light fitting in the bathroom for now and some electrics made safe in the kitchen 

This happened this evening with winding down for time with family ... 

Fortunately the plumber I knew and the electrician was outstanding. This eased my tricky situation of feelings as one knew ... my situation and how it is here .. And for the other it soon became apparent how this home is ... 

All makes for a smoother life during this transitional ... It has unsettled an already unsettled me ... Preparing to travel further than my town ... 

In with love ... Out with stress ... Words of past wisdom of  those who supported past ... 

Disturbing Dreams ,,,

that from the result of memories disturbed on Friday ,,, and exacerbated by forthcoming change of structure ... 

There is still much to adjust to in all strands of life  ... 

Repetition and Circles ...

at least some semblance of a bag to take with one now on the next rehabilitation of the outside ... it is more fined tuned than ever in recent times ... only my clothes have thrown me with dropping a dress size again and what that entails in certain styles ... 

That is good; only I have gone round in circles a bit ... 

And my moods too and the paperwork ... 

Mistakenly ...

mixed up and inside out when tense ... or those new ills that have bothered me ... I might try another alternative remedy ... 

A lot of the info I have received from a specialist nurse, my sister worked alongside, until her new position, was kindly given and passed on. I have worked ever so slowly through the mass of leaflets to see what eases the symptoms and what does not ... a lot has helped ... 

I had to get over the packet of media and words, that came in the post. It was one of those occasions; to put me through my paces. The need and ends to a means to help my health. 

I beg to differ ...

I have attempted to read up on this aspect of training in care ... my view and stand is certainly different ... 

I too might not adapt with the flooding of a home of a home of a client on entering to do therapy 

I too might think the client was withdrawing

Would I overwhelm them ... I do not know ... 

I would certainly understand a sea of human beings coming and going if they had not seen anybody ... not everybody crave to be with others ... especially with a lot happening in the life of the client and flash backs and processing all that was and now is ... the cold world without those who love you for you ... 

I am using words ... I am not fond of now...

A Classic Day in the Life

Of healing where no one can see ... 

There was a lot banter with strangers today both in shared knowing looks at things happening around us ... And the verbal humour to verbal chats about the physical ailments elsewhere as I passed through the shops and chemist today ....

All the while you are silent screaming inside ... It is not easy to share my particular set of woes .... Especially around these young children ... At the best of times ... 

And the home looks worse for wear, the lack of concentration and the countdown stuck on number 7 ... It can stay stuck ... At least the start of another trip to the charity donations ... 

And a bag and trolley further to a more conducive life .... 

I had one meal planned ... Got something else while out today and ended up with something entirely different ... Had to cope with nausea from the disturbed memories ... 

At least I have eaten a tad this evening .... I had a Lunch out that cost a £1 ... The privilege of empty junk food ... 

as I have done in my moments

Sitting in a busy environment sharing the looks of non verbal banter with the antics of a busy lunch hour... at the local supermarket cafe.  I am eating the junk food along with everybody else that is mainly on offer now it is refurbished ...that tickles me too 

Now knowing this store at this time of  day...not enough hand baskets to go around ...I bet...

Recipe of Memories

Memory lane with updated twists in recipes, with the access to online too ... still pleased to have a now old but well loved recipe collection. I have still I have not had a too look at it though ... With the overwhelming tasks in hand currently ...

Eve's Pud was one of the many very first dishes, although that was at the temporary accommodation in the days of blur too ... I have since done this here.

Slab Cake, Easter Biscuits some of the soon to be baked whether here, or if I happen to get the chance at home with Mum and Sister. I have baked banana loaf cake using bananas when they are too sweet, for me to eat. I have also baked carrot cake. Although without the frosting I so like with Passion cake ... 

And another recipe is sachertorte that was a favourite with us in London. The cuisine I was introduced in this city ... the Jewish food ... the restaurants ... American ... Dutch ... and continental cooking ... the cheeses ... the coffee ... bagels ... Shopping in my local supermarket then Harrods and their bakery ... the milk shake bar ... I feel another post of by gone shopping and culinary days ...

This is mental health healing ... the plus side of clutter needing the time and space to re-visit keep but let go of the past ...

Decisions on the Undecided ... Decided ...

A stitch in Time from a Bridesmaid Dress 

I kept some oven to tableware dishes. The perfect size for me now. I have a lid from the same selection of design ... but no dish ... It may or may not turn up from the time others finished the other home when Dad was dying ... 

More decisions yet to get through ... The special clothes from special times ... Collating photos from various homes and times ... stash busting the usual, the unusual and the bizarre ... the annoying to me from a time I rather not remember now, this far down in time. Only with an injury putting me out of action for a while it healed ... falling over too and all the numerous delays from floods and traumas that continued for a time. And the delegation of another home. The death of another close family member. I am finally getting my time to grieve... and clear such a muddled up, disjointed life to move on ...

Delectable Day to Difficult Day to Delectable Day ...

The Extra hours leap year brings was filled with all things best, being a special day to us. That was Monday. The night was a different matter. Yesterday was a struggler. Then yet another night as the night before.

So A Sensational Surprise Sally Stew was made from ingredients pulled together from what I had in. A spur of the moment make. As daughter knows these make the best times. It certainly hit the spot. I also used a special casserole dish from an undecided decision made yesterday, for the very first time. It was relinquished from a dark place, unused, until today. And for the first time since post crisis, the stew was made with the final touch ... Dumplings ...